Names, surgeries, kids, friendships...everything is changing so much and so fast. I have to remind Will sometimes that I just found out about all of this, and I need a minute to process everything. He's so excited and ready to just move forward; I am too, but more for him than me. He's sleeping better, smiling more, and is so much happier in the last week or so.
Will has chosen what his name is going to be after the change...Gabriella Elise...and wants to be called El or Elli. I love the names he has chosen. I think they fit him really well. He has told a large portion of his friends about how he feels and the change, as well. So far everyone has accepted him with open arms. Everyone has questions about how things are going to work though, especially between he, myself, and our 3 month old daughter, Lyndsey.
We've been looking more into the extent of the process for a trangendered female. HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy), SRS (Sex Reassignment Surgery), FFS (Female Feminization Surgery)...there are so many details that I never realized. It's all so scary for me and I'm not even the one going through it all. Besides the surgeries and pills and appointments that he'll have to go through to become a female, there's also the emotional side of it for both of us.
Will has had years to come to terms with this, I on the other hand haven't. I'm still just barely able to wrap my mind around this. I've been dating a male for the last three and a half years, and still will be for a little while. But eventually I'll be with a full fledged female, and will have never changed relationships. It;s difficult for me to wrap my head around all of it. I know I will eventually, but for now I'll just focus on helping Will get this process started, so we can start our new life together.
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